the day.

today i'll have to decide if i'm going to take the shore duty orders in everett washington or try to see if i can get another ship here and stay in san diego... i don't even know if there are any ships that i want to go to out here. yeah i would love to go on another deployment, but shore duty sounds so good. it sucks that i would have to leave san diego to get it... and honestly, it's not like i don't wanna leave. i guess i just thought that if i left SD it would be to go to Japan or maybe even back to Hawaii. I've been to Bremerton before and for three months it rained... this was even in the spring time so believe me i know what it's like... it sucks. but its different... and maybe thats what i need. i definitely need a change of scenery. it's not like i won't come back either... i'll have chances to take leave and probably come back to visit. but at the same time do i really wanna leave san diego? i don't know. we'll find out today... so much is going on in my head right now. this is the time where i need strength the most. help.